Freestyled Blogg

As I nudge my three year olds feet off the screen, which of course is followed by whining. Its 10 o'clock and its time for mommy time! Mommy time usually used to watch tv or play xbox at night is now used for blogging! I was pretty pumped all day today, I kept thinking 'hmmmm what should I blog about tonight?' and now that I think about it I asked myself that at least ten times today and I never did come up with an answer. Therefore I'm just freestyling it again tonight. Hold on bloggers, my boyfriend is texting me, lets see what he had to say! How cute he just text me a random 'love ya'! We've been together now for about a year, a pretty damn rocky year, but we've gotten through it and we are still together. I do love him with all my heart. He is a great boyfriend and when things are good they're great! But when things are bad, its world war three! And it really makes me mad when were going so great and perfect and he'll chance ruining everything my starting a fight about something that was so little, so not worth starting. Which then it snowballs into this huge thing! He's got a really bad temper too. Sometimes it worries me, I mean he get so mad, he'll start driving like a manic if we fight in the car. That scares the hell out of me! I hate it! And one time he ripped up a twenty dollar bill right in front of my face. And trust me he's not ballin like that to where he can rip up a twenty and won't miss it. My main concern about his anger is that since we've been together for a little over a year, its getting pretty serious. I'm 28 and have a three year old daughter so Im not just lookin for a cool guy just to hit and quit. Im looking for a future husband to join my pre-made family. I dont want my daughter to grow up with someone with anger problems, like to where your after to do this or that or say this or that around him because your afraid hes gonna blow up. Like this one time we went to a phillies game, and while we were there, sitting in out seats, chatting away to teach other. I thought about it before I said it, hmm is he gonna get mad...let me just say it. And out it came "Some girl commented on my facebook saying she loves my new hair color" boom once it came out and i saw his face I would have done anything to grab them words and jam them right back down my throat before he heard it. You see I had just made a facebook, three days prior to this, and I didnt tell him when I did so. Therefore he assumed I was using it to talk to other guys. Ugh jealous people are the WORST! So he makes a huge fight out of it and to make a long story short, he goes speed walking out to the parking lot to find the car screaming mean names and things to me as I try to keep up with him, he punches a stop sign and speeds, driving like a manic out of the parking lot! An hour later we make up and things are fine. Now I just wanna smack him and say was it work acting like an a$$ over something as dumb as a facebook page, which when he did look at my fb page he felt real dumb considering all of my friends on there were girls or gay! Right back to my daughter, I lived with a anger-raged stepfather and I defiently dont want my daughter to also have to experience that. Well thats enough for tonight. I have alot more to get out about each of those subject, Im just barely touching the surface of what I want to blog about!!! I love it so far, I'm sure it gets much better once you have followers and people commenting on your blog so I am really excited about that. Goodnight reader, time to get some munchies and settle into bed with my little princess. xoxo

Popping my blogging cherry!

well my first blog! Wow lets see how this works, for once in my life I dont have much to say but hi I guess!! I'm excited to start a blog for the simple reason of gettin out some feellings and opinions I have. I wanted write in a diary but could never get into it for the simple reason that no one is reading my feelings but me. I already know how i feel so to me that just seemed pointless. I wanted to write something for other people to read and here my opinions and feelings even if I am just rambling and venting. I think me and blogging are gonna go together perfectly, hopefully. I'm really curious what the big deal is about blogging. I mean i hear it everywhere blog this and blogging that but I've never blogged nor have I ever really read a blog. For my first "blog" I'm gonna keep it sweet and simple because tonight I am running out of things to say for some reason and because America's Best Dance Crew is on. So I am keeping this blog signed by obviously anonymous because, once I get comfortable, my blogs are going to get much more interseting, I have many opinions and thoughts I want to put out there!! I'm hoping to hear other peoples feed back about my blogs and maybe hear from people who are also are going through situtions i may be in, ya know. So I hope to have ya read my blogs and stick with me through my blogging experience!! Well Im gonna watch some ABDC and go to sleep! Goodnite to all!! xoxo